daisylynn said:
Kurt,
Given the option between nothing and nothing.... I'm crazy.... But I think I'm going to pick nothing. No relationship. And maybe a very spacious friendship. I think I've had enough of feeling like I'm wasting my time. I don't see the point in having a relationship if you can't even tell me you want me around within the next 5 years. So.... I'm going to try to step away from you. But you need to help me. Please don't touch me anymore. No kissing. No hand holding. No cuddling. I'm not even sure I want a hug. It's too much, and I hope you can understand. I love you, but you don't love me.
Love always
Daisy
Can I handle this? Can I move on to save what's left of my heart? Am I sure I'm not betraying my heart?
He's offering exactly what I wanted from Kurt... So why am I so hesitant to go forward... Oh. right. I've heard all of these words before.... And my heart ends up broken. I'm so scared to move forward.... But so disgusted with going backwards. What the hell am I doing?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference. GOD PLEASE GIVE ME THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE.