Well, I've been running often, at LEAST 3x a week. However, I am still eating junk mostly. :c
I've been trying however, and turning vegetarian near the end of November has made me eat more veggies and fruits. My biggest problem is the portions of the food I eat. Because of my schedule, I eat extremely little- if at all- through the morning and early afternoon, and then I get home and GORGE. It is a horrible, horrible habit I know- I will eat past the point of feeling full, just because I was hungry most of the day. Afterwards I will feel fatigued, naturally, and usually just finish my homework and quickly go to sleep, or go to sleep soon after eating, and then waking up around 6 or 7pm, and thus staying up at least till or past midnight, which makes me tired the next day when I wake up before 6. The cycle then repeats.
I KNOW I need to get more sleep, and I KNOW that I need to control of portions, or any activity I perform won't do much. Today was a better day, for dinner I ate much less and I ate a small lunch during the day. I just ate a small, pretty healthy supper and I am about to go running in a moment. I hope and plan to change all these crap habits, because I know they SUCK in multiple aspects.
I usually FEEL a bit self-concious or bigger than "average" in the wonderful, dramatic teenage world, but when I look at some nicer pictures of me, I find myself looking all right, I think. Mostly my goals are to 1. Get healthier by kicking bad habits and eating better, with less cruelty 2. To not GAIN weight, as if I stay like this then I can "live with it''.
Sometimes the #2 viewpoint is a bit hard to remember, mostly because I have some family members that can be pretty rude and hurtful about my weight, which is unfair. The biggest perpetrator in this is my sister, who was EXTREMELY overweight for a large portion of her life, and then jumped to bouts of crazy unhealthy, fad dieting(there were days where for 4-7 days she would eat nothing but drink large amounts of water, and eat 2 slices of white bread a day). Now she is thin, she eats healthy and is thin, but despite this she still feels rather self-conscious, I think, and constantly bashes on friends, strangers, and her family to make herself feel good, which is just frustrating so I ignore it. I try not to let it get to me, but I am mad at her for being such a hypocrite- she bashes often on our close family friends, they are my best friends and sisters, yet 5 years ago she was waaaaay bigger than all of them. She KNOWS how it feels, so she should shut up!!!!!!!!!! >:0 *rant over*
I've given up on getting "skinny" for anyone a long time ago, except for myself or my health, mostly because I know that when people say stuff, it is because they themselves feel badly about themselves. My boyfriend is very supportive and nice of all of my choices(turning vegetarian, doing soccer despite it leaving us with just about no time at all for each other for those few months, exercising), and reminds me that I AM beautiful and he likes me loves my appearance the way it is, so I just tell everyone else to s u c k i t !
