Depressed and numb......Guinness 1/23/08 update

[AlexandraBoo]

omg, Im so sorry..... Omg..... Wow crying moment... He looked like a darling...

 

[jennifervb]

Sorry I have not been around too much lately. My boy Guinness the one who will be on Animal planet in February (the 9th is when the show starts) Is terminally ill. I descovered a large mass in his abdomin last week. It was discovered after seeing him walking funny, his sides were sunken in and he was not walking very well. I then discovered the mass. I gave him some Metacam and Baytril. The following morning he was back to normal, bouncing and climbing the bars for my attention. I felt for the mass again and it was smaller, but it was still there. I decided a vet trip was in order. We went down to the vet and had x-rays done. They showed a mass, but could not determine what exactly it was. So he stayed there for exploratory surgery. I later received a call with the bad news stating he has a large Tumor claiming his kidneys, bladder and prostate. Non operable because its vascular. The worst news I have ever received. All we can do at this time is keep him as comfortable as possible. Feed his tomatoes and broccoli if he'll eat it. He is on Metacam and baytril now.
I took him home and got him all settled in lots of fluffy blankets and towels. Off to the store I went to get things for him. As I was walking thru the store I think it finally hit me and I had a meltdown in Henry's. One of the clerks helped me find some liquid (saw something or another) to help for the prostate. I checked out quickly and ran home. Poor clerk I must have just depressed her as I blubbered on about my pet, my baby.
He is not eating much, I cant get him to eat anything except baby oatmeal from a spoon. However he is drinking his water. He has not been his bubbly self since and is healing at an increadably slow rate. I fear tha by doing the exploratory surgery it escalated his condition. I keep battling with the decision I made to have that done, if I hadnt, would he still be bouncing on the bars eager to see me, instead of lying on the cage bottom. I hate this.
It seems to be going up and down, just when I think things are at the worst, he will do something to lift my spirits, last night he had climed to the top of the cage and was sleeping in his hammock. This morning, I had to wipe runny poos from his bottom and he was not moving very well. Poo's on the bottom, does this mean he is eating on his own when I am not around? Hopeful once again.
Please anyone with advise on this I could sure use some helpful insites. I am hurting very bad right now.
He is the boy in my avatar if you are wondering.
Edit to add picture

***update***
Guinness passed away this morning in his hammock at 5:30 this morning. His breathing was very laboured. I went to go make him breakfast and when I returned he had passed. I cant describe how I am feeling right now. My baby is gone......... :cry:

You have every right and reason, in the world, to grieve sweetie. It is extremely painful to watch a loved one decline in such a way and he was such a beautiful boy. :tearful:

You were beautiful to take him home to be in the comfort of known surroundings, friendly and loving treatment and the joy of hearing your voice and movements from the warmth of his favorite hammock.

Despite how it may have appeared, I believe that he was not suffering any pain. If his tumor was anything like the one my girlfriend's dog had, then there was only weakness and the need to sleep.

Always remember that there can be no greater joy than to die in the care of a beloved owner. Judging by your picture, that little man was always in the 7th heaven he is in now... with your picture in his little suitcase. :love6:

Grief shows how much one is loved when they pass on. According to the Wizard of Oz... a heart is judged, not by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others. Guinness is no longer, physically, there for us to see, hear and touch, but he is still with you Mindy and he always will be. Eventually, you will be able to take comfort in the glory of the love and care you provided to such a wonderful little man. Have faith sweetie-pie. You have sent him on, before you, to the place where you will see him again. :heart: :rose: :love6: