Fidget
Senior Member
Sorry, this is long, but her life was life so precious and too short and she deserves this bit of time honored.
I'm utterly heartbroken to tell you that I found SugarBear passed away last night. It was - and still is - a total incomprehensible shock. I found her gone when I let everyone out on the bed last night at 9:45 and she didn't come.
She was a SARS rescue that came with older Astoria, and her Troutdale rescue-sisters Fidget, Summer & Sumone Oct 3/07. I've guesstimated their birthdays at July 10/07.
She hadn't been ill... I checked her body over when I'd calmed down and there was no sign of what could have happened, no injuries, no blood coming from her eyes, ears, vagina or bum, nothing she could have got into, no drool, no bumps or discoloration anywhere... only some porphrin still wet in her nose.
They'd been out the night before, she'd been running around and playing, on her wheel, climbing the towercage, running from scritches, just no sign of anything wrong... I'm heartsick that I wasn't with her when she passed :cry: and don't even know if it was sudden or if she was in distress for a time.
The only thing more painful right now than my guilt is my grief - I've lost 3 of the 5 that were entrusted to me in less than 6 months. Summer & SugarBear were much too young to go with so little time to have lived. Summer & I fought a long battle together for her life but couldn't save her and she passed Christmas morning. SugarBear went with no warning but my poor baby went alone unheld in the end. Of course I feel I failed her and I'm sick that she was alone, I'm trying to think of her the night before when we were playing, and the happy life she had here with her sisters, and hope it was quick and painless....
She was such a sweet gentle girl. She was both January's comfort zone and her partner in crime from the day she came. She was gentle and respectful of all her sisters. She was a bit standoffish with me at first but she had come around to seeking me out for play and scritches. She was a blessing. and I can't believe I'm writing this about my SugarBear already :cry:
Oh SugarBear, I love you more than you ever got to know baby.
Sugar, Summer & Astoria the day after they came - all gone now, all too soon.
Gentle girl with Reese & Josh's Harry
Patient with January 3 days after the hellion came:
Ready to play:
And her standard 'look', and the last picture I have of her - the way I'll always see her:
You'll be here with us as long as your sisters are here baby. And in my heart as long as I'm here. My precious :kisses:
I'm utterly heartbroken to tell you that I found SugarBear passed away last night. It was - and still is - a total incomprehensible shock. I found her gone when I let everyone out on the bed last night at 9:45 and she didn't come.
She was a SARS rescue that came with older Astoria, and her Troutdale rescue-sisters Fidget, Summer & Sumone Oct 3/07. I've guesstimated their birthdays at July 10/07.
She hadn't been ill... I checked her body over when I'd calmed down and there was no sign of what could have happened, no injuries, no blood coming from her eyes, ears, vagina or bum, nothing she could have got into, no drool, no bumps or discoloration anywhere... only some porphrin still wet in her nose.
They'd been out the night before, she'd been running around and playing, on her wheel, climbing the towercage, running from scritches, just no sign of anything wrong... I'm heartsick that I wasn't with her when she passed :cry: and don't even know if it was sudden or if she was in distress for a time.
The only thing more painful right now than my guilt is my grief - I've lost 3 of the 5 that were entrusted to me in less than 6 months. Summer & SugarBear were much too young to go with so little time to have lived. Summer & I fought a long battle together for her life but couldn't save her and she passed Christmas morning. SugarBear went with no warning but my poor baby went alone unheld in the end. Of course I feel I failed her and I'm sick that she was alone, I'm trying to think of her the night before when we were playing, and the happy life she had here with her sisters, and hope it was quick and painless....
She was such a sweet gentle girl. She was both January's comfort zone and her partner in crime from the day she came. She was gentle and respectful of all her sisters. She was a bit standoffish with me at first but she had come around to seeking me out for play and scritches. She was a blessing. and I can't believe I'm writing this about my SugarBear already :cry:
Oh SugarBear, I love you more than you ever got to know baby.
Sugar, Summer & Astoria the day after they came - all gone now, all too soon.
Gentle girl with Reese & Josh's Harry
Patient with January 3 days after the hellion came:
Ready to play:
And her standard 'look', and the last picture I have of her - the way I'll always see her:
You'll be here with us as long as your sisters are here baby. And in my heart as long as I'm here. My precious :kisses: