CherryChan
Well-Known Member
I don't know if I am posting this in the right part of the forum but one of my two heart rats started her journey today. She had a large tumor the size of an egg under her arm that was started to hinder her movement and she was getting skinnier by the day. She had just had a strong round of zithromax to control her myco, and was otherwise in great health.
I decided the best course of action was to try and remove the tumor, to make her more comfortable...I thought that it would be no big deal, and that she would at least make it home for me to nurse her back to health. The vet assistant called me and told me she had woken up and was doing good and that I could pick her up later. A few moments later, however, the vet got on the phone to tell me that her heart had just....stopped....He said he tried his best to revive her but couldnt.
I feel so much regret because I wasnt there with her, that she must have been so scared and alone...The guilt is killing me and I know there is nothing I can do to change it. I feel like I made a huge mistake and could have just euthanized her, at least I would have been by her side...or even just let her live a bit longer, since she was still eating and walking...
She left behind her sister...I let her see the body, she kept trying to grab the cloth I had her wrapped in...I dont know if she fully understood what had happened...
She was always so strong, she would climb up and down their 3 story cage, even with the tumor... I thought she would be strong enough to go through the surgery but I was very sadly mistaken...I am so broken over this...:cry2:
I decided the best course of action was to try and remove the tumor, to make her more comfortable...I thought that it would be no big deal, and that she would at least make it home for me to nurse her back to health. The vet assistant called me and told me she had woken up and was doing good and that I could pick her up later. A few moments later, however, the vet got on the phone to tell me that her heart had just....stopped....He said he tried his best to revive her but couldnt.
I feel so much regret because I wasnt there with her, that she must have been so scared and alone...The guilt is killing me and I know there is nothing I can do to change it. I feel like I made a huge mistake and could have just euthanized her, at least I would have been by her side...or even just let her live a bit longer, since she was still eating and walking...
She left behind her sister...I let her see the body, she kept trying to grab the cloth I had her wrapped in...I dont know if she fully understood what had happened...
She was always so strong, she would climb up and down their 3 story cage, even with the tumor... I thought she would be strong enough to go through the surgery but I was very sadly mistaken...I am so broken over this...:cry2: