Thanks for the kind words, I had not posted on here but my sweet bubbin pie Verdell left us on Thursday. He put up a strong fight, but I couldn't ask him to fight any longer & I had given him my word that I wouldn't make him go another day in that state. I think he knew, because he spent the whole drive snuggled in my arms sucking up every last drop of love. His last thoughts were in my arms, & I do believe he was happy up until the end. :heart: His memorial is here, for those who weren't fortunate enough to know my little man:
http://www.ratshackforum.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=8&t=18697
Minxie is hanging in there, I've had to take her out to force cuddles upon her, but she is handling them gracefully considering she never trusted me all that much. I finally pulled through the tasks of cleaning the cage out, stopping frequently to try & smell the last traces of my wonderful baby boy. I keep smelling the laundry as I fold it, thinking I can catch a whiff of him here & there. & I managed to find a clump of Verdell hair in the washing machine just now... I'm sure it probably seems crazy to cling to such things... These past few days have just been hard... it feels like I am slowly erasing him from these walls. I know that these things are not him anymore, it's just hard to convince myself to let go of these last bits of him.
& sadly, I realize that life goes on whether we like it or not. Minxie reminds me everyday that she needs a companion, that I alone am not enough for her. I managed to locate a lone boy at a rescue about three hours from here, & though I'm not ready for a brand new soul, Minxie has a hole to fill & this little man needs a home. I've arranged to adopt him on tuesday, I just hope he knows what big shoes he has to fill.
On top of everything else, I still have to leave for petsitting on thursday & will be taking everything with me. Anyone who doesn't have an order placed should try to let me know what they would like by wednesday. I meant to give everyone a lot more notice, but plans changed. If anyone is tentative on an order, you can also just tell me which fabrics you'd like me to bring along so I'll have them on hand. Those with current orders are set to go, & thanks so much to you all for being so patient during this & letting me have time with my baby boy & grieve with Minx. I can't tell you how much I appreciate it. :heart: