abby3089
Well-Known Member
Back in August I got a new baby rat, Imogen. As a former rat owner, who had successfully purchased and owned several rats from pet stores over the years, I went to my local Petco and got a 6 week old female rat. I realized it was a risk, but I never imagined it could be so bad. I ended up only having her for a month. A week into our time together, it became obvious that I had purchased a sickly baby. Imogen was wheezing, sneezing, and had difficulty breathing. Worse, when I took her to the vet, we discovered she had lice and a horrible tapeworm infestion. She was underweight and horribly ill, and though her parasites eventually disappeared, her respiratory issues did not. After a month of treatment, I made the decision to have her x-rayed. She had a well-developed tumor in her lung, and potentially, congestive heart failure. I made the decision to have Imogen euthanized.
Months later, I have two new girls, now three and half months old. They are from an excellent, reputable breeder. And the bloodline has low instances of tumors and respiratory problems. I love them dearly, and despite one recent incident of a torn toenail, appear to be quite healthy.
However, I have become a very paranoid rat owner. Every little occasional sneeze (all environmental), speck of poryphin (even if I know they have just woken up), scratch, or otherwise sends me into a panic. My brain instantly wants to think the worst. I have flashbacks about what happened to Imogen. Though I have a wonderful breeder who advises me on everything, and reassures me everything is fine...what happened with Imogen has left me heartbroken, and I blame myself even though I shouldn't. Even though deep down I know she was likely born with the tumor, and many of her problems came from the mill she was born in, I still wonder if my home environment somehow contributed to her condition. I worry I did something wrong, and that I will accidentally do something to harm my two new babies.
I was wondering if anyone could share their advice on how to get past a tragic loss of a pet, and how they manage to go forward and be good pet owners without getting too paranoid? The stress is killing me...
Months later, I have two new girls, now three and half months old. They are from an excellent, reputable breeder. And the bloodline has low instances of tumors and respiratory problems. I love them dearly, and despite one recent incident of a torn toenail, appear to be quite healthy.
However, I have become a very paranoid rat owner. Every little occasional sneeze (all environmental), speck of poryphin (even if I know they have just woken up), scratch, or otherwise sends me into a panic. My brain instantly wants to think the worst. I have flashbacks about what happened to Imogen. Though I have a wonderful breeder who advises me on everything, and reassures me everything is fine...what happened with Imogen has left me heartbroken, and I blame myself even though I shouldn't. Even though deep down I know she was likely born with the tumor, and many of her problems came from the mill she was born in, I still wonder if my home environment somehow contributed to her condition. I worry I did something wrong, and that I will accidentally do something to harm my two new babies.
I was wondering if anyone could share their advice on how to get past a tragic loss of a pet, and how they manage to go forward and be good pet owners without getting too paranoid? The stress is killing me...