dspch911
Senior Member
I did not want to take over Godmother's thread so I'll start my own. This past Tuesday rocked my world - my world as I knew it - and I'm damn MAD right now!!! Most of you guys can probably figure out from my online name I'm a 911 dispatcher - I work inside a police department, so these officers I work with are my second family! Actually, I'm closer to most of them then my biological family!! So when I answered my phone (at home) at 0908 on Tuesday morning the LAST thing I was expecting to hear was that our police commander had committed suicide.... Brief history, he was our police chief until about a month ago when politics came into play and we got a new Mayor and positions changes - he was demoted, blah blah... How dare he commit such a selfish act!! He has 2 children and a sick wife. There will be no life insurance for his family now - suicide doesn't pay out. His daughter (will be a freshman in high school) will miss out of so much getting her driver's license, first prom, first boyfriend, graduation, father walking her down the aisle at her wedding. His son (will be a freshman in college) will miss out on things also. How dare he leave his sick wife with the burden of college tuition, mortgage, etc. Saturday was suppose to be their graduation party and instead the will bury their father - a day before father's day. Then there is us - we will forever feel the loss. He is a part of this building we have to walk into every day. He had no right to go and alter my life path either... My life was heading one way at 0907 and took another path at 0908 - if you can understand that - I'll never be the same... Tuesday I had cake tasting for my wedding cake that was suppose to be a fun day for me - it wasn't - its a hazing memory.. I'm ANGRY and I want to know why he did it - he didn't even have the courtesy to leave an explaination behind. I never knew how selfish an act suicide was until it hit me personnally. We've had grief counselors here, what a joke !! I just needed to vent before I exploded. Sorry if I have offended anyone....but I needed to get this out and I haven't been able to sleep so I am a bit cranky... Although I am glad he choose no to come to the station first and take the ones that wronged to out too.